-Saturday, January 17, 2009-7:13 AM Y
Tsk.
I cant stand enthusiasm..i really cant.
Since I turned 15, I started hating enthusiasm.
It’s just so NOT me…I can’t put on some clown mask and pretend to be someone who I am so not.
I think my so called ‘cold’ personality is getting pretty obvious and I feel the solitude arising from it (not that I’m complaining, I find it somehow or rather…a good thing)
Why do I think solitude rocks? Most likely, it’s cos I’ve encountered so many turns in my life that accumulates til this happens.
I feel that I can neither trust nor depend so much on someone as it might turn out to be some poison and will counter attack if anything happens…to reveal much about oneself is to give off their weaknesses.
I believe in that.
I cant let people know my weaknesses and I can neither let people know my REAL strengths.
Believe me, I doubt anyone in school really knows me well to write a biography of me or something.
Solitude gives me a peace of mind from my really hectic life.
I can relax and do my own things at my very own pace. It’s great.
However, consequences such as being labeled as ‘loner’ might arise in between times, but I have learnt not to care about the negative thinking people have about me.
Why don’t people understand that I am not a loner, its just that I wanna be left alone, that’s all?
*sigh*
Some people just don’t get it.
Dont mind the silliness here but can i have him? XD
Dreamt about NutFish Joven for some reason….dunno why, lol.
So weird…
Woke up and fell asleep again to dream…of Aoki instead.
LOL! What a dream that was….so gross…ugh!
But honestly, who’d wanna complain if it is Aoki anyway? XD HAHAHAHAH!! LOL!
Just kidding. *points below*
Oh, and dearest Hiroki-senpai gave me good news!
He says he will be coming back in feb and I might be able to meet up with senpai!!
How cool is that!?!
HAPPY EARLY 19th BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST KOTA!!!!!!!!!!
Shrouded by Rainy Memories